Reminder to myself - Top Five Regrets of the Dying

Bronnie Ware is an Australian nurse who spent several years working in palliative care, caring for patients in the last 12 weeks of their lives. She recorded their dying epiphanies in a blog called Inspiration and Chai, which gathered so much attention that she put her observations into a book called The Top Five Regrets of the Dying.

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

You might have read this before. This was just a reminder to ourselves.

Life is always a choice. You could have make yourself happier.

Throughout our childhood, while we learn everything about life, we were taught to be what society want us to be.

As we grow up, we should know, there is always a choice.

Be who are you.

Don't regret. 

     

Make no choice

Our life would never be the same again.
Mine, both daughter's.
You can't say it has became worse. Because i would try my best to make it good.
But it will definitely be different from what it should be.

A life with father, and one without father.

Nobody would ever want it. But we could make no choice.
Life and death are always not on our hand.

Sometimes i am good, sometimes i am not.
It's something that we lost.
It's something that we missed.
It's something that would forever on my mind.

Life still carry on.
We could make no choice.
 

Be nice to people

I guess, people may not know you personally, but they will remember you as forever if you have been nice to them. 

Wherever I see this doctor, I remember her as a very nice and kind and friendly doctor. She is a infectious disease disease. Quite reputation and kind of top in our state. But I never imagine she is this kind although we saw her prescription always.

I remember that i was fortunate to attend a clinic with her. I was still under training by the time. While my superior was not there, this doctor still recognize me as her subordinate, and tried to teach me although I was new to her, and I only been in the clinic for only ten munites. She taught me the implication of lab result and the The time spent there enough for me to know that she was kind, humble, helpful and a great teacher. 

I met her just now at the conference. For sure she can't remember me. I looked at her from far away. But in my mind, she is always a very dedicated and kind doctor. That's what I remember. 

So I guess, we should be nice to others. Whenever whatever wherever. We should be. 

Inside Out

For me this is a must-watch movie! I give it 10/10. Their scores on many movie review website are high too.

I myself shed tears inside the cinema. My friends too.

I can't be the spoiler here.

But it is about personal, the emotion and the family!

We gotta take care of ourselves. Even when it's down, let it be, deal with it and get over it!

Be happy when you are happy; be sad when you are sad.

This is life.

Treasure everything!

Which petrol station do you go?

I normally go to Shell. We had the bonuslink card, although the points accumulation is very slow. Previously only shell accept my amex. Other petrol station seem not welcome amex. As you all know Maybank 2 card previously offer 5% cash back during weekend spending. This offer is no longer available. So i usually pump at Shell.

Shell face a massive lost since the petrol price drop. One of the shell station nearby my living area was being closed down. Petron it changed to.

My amex no longer give me 5% cash back during weekend. So i should find another card which may give me more benefits. Perhaps i need to switch to other petrol too.

There is another story, once my husband pump petrol at petronas, he claimed that it gave less energy than which he usually pump at shell. I do not know. Maybe there is still some difference between petrol?

Any suggestion to me which credit card and which petrol station should i go and how to get the best benefits from it?

United States of America

How much of our environment, our life been affected by USA?
If  you do not listen to english song, if you do not concern much about fashion, if you do not watch Hollywood movie or English drama, maybe not.

I listen to english song more than chinese song. This happened since i was in secondary school. Although i do not really sing english song, i hardly catch the lyrics, i love english song. 

I watch english drama too. The first would be.. Ally Mcbeal maybe? Ha, this exposed my age. It was a humorous dramatic drama about a young attorney enter into a law firm. It was actually not for young children, where i may only be 11 years old. Anyway, the drama after that would be Charms and Buffy the vampire slayer. Oh.. the good old days..

After that the one i was so into is Gossip Girl. Who did not watch this?

Those real man show, "America Next top Model" is my favourite. Never miss a cycle since cycle 7. It is now cycle 22!

So this all actually affects us much. When you really visit to the country, you feel so familiar with the places. I was so lucky that i have been to USA twice, thanks to my parents and sister.
When i was in New York City, i was keen to the Central Park, where the scene in gossip girl much taken. Who did not know Times Square, 5th avenue, Golden Gate Bridge? Oh.. the Golden Gate Bride occur so often in the Hollywood movie. 

I simply must say, i like this country. We are deeply affected by their culture.

When will be my next visit? I do not think it will be near future. Saving is my priority now. With my kids, the cost of travelling would not be easy.

Manglish

Sometimes i was so "impressed" by Malaysian English.
Very direct translate, mixed with other language.
I believe many people who doesn't know mandarin cannot understand Manglish.
I myself cannot understand most of the time.

The grammer and the sentence constructions cannot make sense.

Does people not be ashamed by the poor english?
I myself admit that i do not poses good english, as difficult and unusual vocabulary. But i tried to make my sentence logically and comprehensible.

I think at least if you want to use the language, you should try to make it right.

Let's work hard.
Maybe read more newspaper?

Bus to KLIA from South

There is one way, by taking express bus. I never know this kind of service. When i think of going to KLIA or KLIA2 or LCCT (before KLIA2), either we drive, or we get a driver to send us. The cost of going to airport by paid driver is quite high, which should be more than RM800 from Kluang. So, what other choices do we have?

Recently only i know there is one bus express from jb which will take passengers to airport, and they stop at yong peng! This is good and cheap. The fare is only RM55 from Yong Peng. Good one, right? 

The website is www.yoyo.my. They allow online booking. You just need to print out the ticket which is very convenient.

Miserable days of female

Due to the hormonal changes, we tend to have emotion fluctuations once in every cycle. Maybe not everybody experience this, but this is really miserable. During this period, last from few days to one week, you will be easily irritated, depressed and unhappy, for no reason. This no reason really makes people crazy. You become not the same you anymore. This is not you. But you can't help. 

When i used to have menstrual pain in younger age, chocolate helps to relieve the pain, and also the mood. But this time it does not work.

I think during this period females are vulnerable and think negatively. So, people around please tolerate.

The influence of social media

I must say, there is the real influence of those bloggers.

Doing the planning for coming KL trip. Then i start to look for those familiar restaurant or spot where maybe i don't really see as popular, but mentioned by the bloggers.

Such as this restaurant, Oribe Japanese fine dining. Jane Chuck went there several times. That makes me wonder how fabulous is this restaurant. So that's it, the birthday dinner for my husband! haha.

So, the bloggers are really something. And i see why those company or events always invite bloggers. What they do/go/see/eat/play will really imprint in the followers, like me, then there goes the advertisement and influence.

H&M is coming to Kluang

There were some people sharing this news. There is no official news from H&M or Kluang Mall. But you can see H&M is recruiting employees on jobstreet and the shop lot will be located at Kluang Mall.

Wow, H&M is coming to Kluang? Unbelievable.
There were always long queue on the opening day of every H&M Malaysia outlet. 

I like them too. First, not expensive. Second, the clothes are nice-looking.
There is something about this brand that sometimes they co-work with some designers to come out with some lines. So, it's not that simple casual stuff. 

And they are coming to Kluang? Still can't believe it.

I look through jobstreet for their recruitment advertisement. They are hiring store manager. And i put in RM5K as the expected salary. Then it showed above expected salary.

I got it as a store manager, especially at big brand, bear the responsibility as for sales and staff management.
But RM5K in Kluang is not bad. And i urge those who works at Singapore or KL who wish to come back and settle down at hometown, this is the chance!

Few years back, when there was secret recipe 'occured' here, i said "wow".
Then, starbucks.
Then, subway.
Then, H&M?

i must say, the spending ability of Kluang people must be something.
LOL.

Appreciate

People always take things for granted. They never appreciate what they have got or what people have done for them.

They only see for what people do not do. 

Say more "thank you".
Show your appreciation.
Show them that you know people's effort.
This will make the people happy.

Breastfeeding

It is almost time. It is 38weeks now. Going to due in two more weeks. She can even come out now.

I did not breastfeed my first daughter. I tried. But stopped because of inexperience. The position was wrong. She can't suck it efficiently. So i got very tired everytime feeding her. Eventually the nipples were hurt. The pain is unbearable especially when you take shower. So i stopped. Poor daughter. I should have insist and stay stronger in the matter of breastfeeding. So she can get more antibodies and natural goods from me. The other benefits is to save money. The formula milk is so damned expensive! The one i give her is in the middle-to-high cost formula milk. So regret of this. Formula milk could cost a big bomb to our wallet.

Now i have changed my mind. For the sake of my budget, the first sentence i asked in the shop "Boss, which brand is the cheapest?". This would be the standby for the baby when she's out while the breast milk haven't been produced enough for her.

I should have know some information and knowledge earlier. My colleague told me, she breastfeed her daughter for about 4 months. Stopped when she resumed work. But her daughter never sucked her nipples. She pumped out all the time. Aiya, i should have know this earlier. So that i can do the same. Too bad my daughter was one year older than this coll's daughter. Then i would know the way to get the breastmilk for my daughter even though my nipples were hurt.

Many of experienced mother recommend me of medela breast pump. The colleague adviced me to buy first so that i can induce the breast milk production even when the baby did not know how to suck.

 The breast pump is so expensive. If you don't use it, it will be a waste. Initially i don't plan to buy one. To buy an efficient and convenient breast pump cost you over RM200. Those below RM100 i doubt the efficiency. All those around me bought the breast pump at the range over RM200. Oh no, i did not plan to spend so much in this. After the story of my colleague (she only pump out the breast milk but manage to breast feed her child for about 4 months), I am motivated to do so too. Wish me luck!

I will try this brand too, as many people recommend this. You know what, my sister from USA got one of this at her home. She should have bring this back last Nov. She only used it several times in the beginning to induce the breast milk production. After that her child would get the breast milk in the natural way. She get it for FREE from USA government, as her family considered to be "low-income" family. Western country though charged you high tax, return you in good benefits. FREE breast pump! How nice, she should have bring it back!

Wish me a very happy confinement month!

Pregnancy

I don't really care for my little baby this time. No "pantang" on eating. Eat whatever i wish to eat. Of course, i still avoid "cold" food like crabs. But i drink cold drinks. I just think that i can stay slim after giving birth. So i have no limit on oral intake. Eat whatever and whenever i would like to. This is the outcome. I start to easiy get bloated for this very last 2 month of my pregnancy. Oh no, the gastric pain is unbearable. Even can't fall sleep at night. T.T

Pregnancy is always accompanied with leg cramp, backache, lethargy and constipation. Always. Just have to bear with it.

Hope that she (he) would be a very healthy baby. God bless!

New Car

I'm so into all new Ford Focus.
Previously, i thought i'm contented with my Myvi. I should not ask for more. A car is just a transport. Should not spend too much on it. Should not make our debt bigger. 
However, i found out that my car plate number is easy to remember.  i don't really like that. May i change a new car, with a random number that nobody will know that's my car? lol. Maybe that's deal with privacy. Or this is just an excuse to buy a new one? 
I don't think this is a good reason.
Actually i don't take care of my car well. It's dirty, stained by daughter's urine (ouch..). It has met some small accident. The outlook is not nice anymore. 
I simply don't take good care of it.
So.. i am thinking of a new car. 
Surf through all the car models. Not all, though. shortlisted some.
Ford Focus is on my list.
My budget should not be that high. 100k should be the maximum.
I went to the showroom with my husband. Ford Focus. real nice. The features really make us heart popping. Wow. It's so nice!
I like the interior design. The driver seat. The view is so nice.
The passenger is blocked by the drawer. have to move back the seat or else can't open the drawer.

I am so into Ford Focus!

Yesterday i went to parent's house. Mention about buying a new car to my dad. Telling him the car model and how many cc of the engine, last but not least the price. Yah, they start their talking. How expensive the car is. How much i would need to pay for downpayment and the loan every moth. I should save money for investment, for kids' studies.. A 70 - 80k japanese car would be enough. 2nd hand japanese car would be the best. bla bla bla..
OK, stop it.
I would not change a new car.
Ya, i'm a parent's girl.
So, no new car in my plan now.
Their words is always good for us.
=)

britney spears

i really like britney spears's song.

although she became someone i don't really admire in the later years,
her song is still into my taste!

new year resolution

new year resolution?

for me, resolution is just something i promise to myself, and i forget it after tat.
LOL..

so i don't wan to make any now..


i just bought one dictionary today.
english to english dictionary.
in the hope that i can improve my english.
not some broken malaysian rojak english.

so.. maybe this is my resolution?
to read more books, update my inner side and improve my english!

hope so..

so wat's now?

if, i am not going to go travelling,
as often as i wish to,
as far as i wish to..

if, i am not going to change my car in few years time..

if, i am not going to buy a new house,
and move into a new house,
have my own household and family...

if, i am going to stay at government,
be a government servant for the rest of my life...

so what is my goal now?

can someone give me a goal?