纷扰

人世间的纷纷扰扰，只有看破红尘的那些出家人才能放下。

我们，凡人，是怎样都被缠绕在其中。
无法自拔，无法参透。。

悲觀

這幾個月都處於很悲觀的情況。

坐飛機怕飛機失事。
坐車怕發生意外。
連生病都覺得會一病不起。

呸呸呸⋯

可是這樣的想法依然縈繞腦中。

女兒發燒。
我很怕。
為甚麼喝了退燒藥還是那麼高？

我怕⋯

爱是互相伤害。

世事

世事又岂能如愿？

沟通，是件累人的事。
解释，是件累人的事。

不是说，懂你的人不需要解释吗？

唯一。过客。

我不想成为众多人当中的其中一个。
我只想我是唯一，唯二。。。好吧，唯三的一个。

如果我不是，可以不可以原谅我把你给放在一边，不去想了？

我只想我是特别的，在你心中永远占有那一席之位。
不是十位中的一位，而是五位中的一位。

我的要求会不会很多？

不会。
这只是我心中小小的想法。
你不需要理会。

这世界上没有谁会因为没有了谁而活不了的。
我不会因为不是独特的那一位就歇斯底里。
你也不会因为我把你放在一边而觉得有所不同。

因为，陪我们走到最后的那一位可能就只是那一位。
他才是会让我们歇斯底里的那一个。
也是一个叹气就让我们觉得浑身不自在的他。
他可能就是今生中的唯一的一个唯一。

而你和我，可能只是
过客
。

大选

要大选了。
从何时开始那么关心政治？
大学时期把。
说真的，年轻人懂什么政治？也从来不知道什么部长，什么议院，什么政策。大学里有一堂课叫做“伊斯兰皇朝”。教授多数都是拿来聊天，我们从来也不认真上课。可是那学期那个教授很恐怖，会点人出来讲话。他要你扮演个部长，今天是教育部长，下星期是财政部长，问你，现在这个部长是谁当，如果你当，你要是是什么政策。
怕死会被叫到。因为我从来不认识我们的部长。我只认识卫生部长。哈哈。
应该这是“启蒙”课了。
第一次投票，也就是308大选政治大海啸，那期间在外舍总是和屋友兼系友聊政治。想不到他们的槟城就这样被行动党赢去了。
这次的大选，真的是紧张。
谁会赢呢？

行动党南下打柔佛。我们的居銮从来都没有那么红过。居銮人，要投谁呢？如果是我，我也真上脑精，不到最后一分钟，我也不知我会投谁。不用紧，不用烦恼，因为我不是这个选区的。哈哈。

其实我们要的是一个公平的社会。贪污腐败，真的是执政者最大的败笔。如果他们继续掌权，我们的钱还会继续进他们的口袋的。那是大众的钱啊，是用来发展社会及国家的钱啊。

大家要冷静，要想清楚。别跟风。因为你手中的那一票是神圣的！

New Car

I'm so into all new Ford Focus.
Previously, i thought i'm contented with my Myvi. I should not ask for more. A car is just a transport. Should not spend too much on it. Should not make our debt bigger. 
However, i found out that my car plate number is easy to remember.  i don't really like that. May i change a new car, with a random number that nobody will know that's my car? lol. Maybe that's deal with privacy. Or this is just an excuse to buy a new one? 
I don't think this is a good reason.
Actually i don't take care of my car well. It's dirty, stained by daughter's urine (ouch..). It has met some small accident. The outlook is not nice anymore. 
I simply don't take good care of it.
So.. i am thinking of a new car. 
Surf through all the car models. Not all, though. shortlisted some.
Ford Focus is on my list.
My budget should not be that high. 100k should be the maximum.
I went to the showroom with my husband. Ford Focus. real nice. The features really make us heart popping. Wow. It's so nice!
I like the interior design. The driver seat. The view is so nice.
The passenger is blocked by the drawer. have to move back the seat or else can't open the drawer.

I am so into Ford Focus!

Yesterday i went to parent's house. Mention about buying a new car to my dad. Telling him the car model and how many cc of the engine, last but not least the price. Yah, they start their talking. How expensive the car is. How much i would need to pay for downpayment and the loan every moth. I should save money for investment, for kids' studies.. A 70 - 80k japanese car would be enough. 2nd hand japanese car would be the best. bla bla bla..
OK, stop it.
I would not change a new car.
Ya, i'm a parent's girl.
So, no new car in my plan now.
Their words is always good for us.
=)

rude person

i don't usually get mad. hmm.. i always try to be nice to the patient. However i found out that my temper has became worse since i worked at klinik kesihatan. i can still remember the first few weeks that i've started to work at the busy + crowded klinik kesihatan mengkibol, i would always smiled and been so polite to the patients. As i've read one article saying that one smile of yours can make another people happy for the whole day. But i can truly know that why my colleague that have been work there longer than me had a not-so-good attitude compared to mine. The patients are just so many! sometimes have to deal with counseling, or variety of request. You just can't have the smile hanging on the face all the time. So tired.

I know that i'm now talk to patients with less smile, less patience. Still i try to be polite. Sometimes my colleague will inform me that my voices are too loud. Well, with loud voice then only the poor-hearing/poor-understanding patient can truly understand what i mean.

There was a case happened in this morning. A pakcik came to take the medicine with a prescription. He said he was late to collect the medicine, as the tca written by us was 1/8, but he came today (8/8). Actually The prescription is only for one-month supplied medicine. But we were lack of simvastatin 20mg, so we still owed him(actually the patient is his wife) simvastatin 20mg for another 2 weeks. tca for doctor is 14/8. so basically i just need to supplied him 6-day simvastatin 20mg. However, he said all other medicines already finished. well, then i asked him, did you take the medicine as instructed/labeled? He started getting angry. i must say, i spoke at a very well-manner, very soft and polite tone. i don't understand why he wan to get angry. Then he started to say, "nak bagi bagi, tak mau bagi tak pe." bla bla bla.. and sound that he wan to make complain. 

sometimes, i just can't understand why people wan to be so easily annoyed. i really talk in a very well manner. Even after he started raised his voice and showed his bad attitude, i still replied softly. 

"kita makan apa yang u kasih. you ingat kita ni bodoh ke? tak tau makan ubat? sebenarnya kena datang 1/8, tapi sudah lambat. ubat sudah habis. nak kasih kasih, tak mau tak pe."

all i asked is only "did u take the medicine as ordered? how did u take the medicine?"

and the tca written 1/8 is only for simvastatin 20mg. all other medicines already fully supplied.

i'm so pissed off, although still talking politely to him, trying to explain the reason i ask.

ignorant people. rude people. crazy people.

he is not the one who take the medication. His wife is. 

He may not fully understand what the medication is. 

still wan to scold us and act like we're the one who're wrong.

sot!!!

我是一只小小鸟。

抄来的

1. 人们有些时候需要忘记过去，
2。冷静思考解决方法，
3。放弃一些不应该拥有的东西或欲望，
4。勤劳的工作（要知道，这是一种快乐之一），
5。拥有梦想（这是不论什么时候都必需拥有），
6。拥有幽默的思想，
7。改变生活环境和日常接触的东西，
8。制造简单干净的生活环境，
9。一些简单程度的对生活素质讲究（比如有一个精美的喝茶具和喝茶桌），
10。回去以前一些快乐的地方游玩，结识新的朋友。
11。运动，练气，练力，深呼吸
12。尝试走不同的道
13。立即幻想（是的，你没有看错，请立刻幻想一些好的事情，比如你是孙悟空，你将来会越来越好，你能在天空飞，你将能xxx，等等等等）
以上的办法我相信应该能改善情况的。

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