想要而不需要的，就是不必要的。

想要而不需要的，就是不必要的。

好有意思的一句话。
早上在ai fm里听到的。


老天爷总在我需要指点的时候拉我一把。
他怎么知道我在烦恼要叫妈妈三月去欧洲是帮我买哪个包包呢。
没有预算，却又很想买。

现在人花钱花惯了。

喝咖啡要喝starbucks.
吃点心要吃西式蛋糕。

我发现西方人的食物都比较贵咧。


克制自己。
千万要省。

还好现在找到省钱的目的和目标。
没存钱，哪有钱买股啊！

有时候驾车驾到想睡觉。那该怎么办啊。
也不是很远程，怎么那么想睡。

好累。

十分钟前醒来的最后一个梦，我在梦里一直哭一直哭。我经历了一个故事。

我想我是太想念一个朋友。亦或是我感情用太深。

最近常在梦里哭，然后就哭着醒。或是，醒来了，情绪被带出来，就想哭。

其实，二十八年来，没几个人是我一想到就会触动心里那条线而想哭。多年的感情啊。我用心经营的感情啊。

这个朋友，二十四年的朋友。因为各自的发展，没再联络的朋友。我是太想念她了。

为什么会失联？

我想我需要他们的消息。不然，每每想到他们，我都很难过。

曾经的好朋友。

曾经也为了分开而非常难过，“天下无不散之筵席”，一个朋友这样开解我。

带着一种怨恨的心情，一直哭，一直哭。为什么，我们就分开了呢？
为什么我那么想念你们？为什么我们都没联络了呢？

（哭）

Wan Xin's school holiday

Basically she is just a small kid. She went to school just for fun. She cannot recognise or write ABC even being to school for one whole year.

Going to school or not seem like no different to her. But sometimes she was having her sleep so deep and sweet that she refused to go to school.

Her very first long school holiday was very fun. Her cousins from USA are here since Nov. We have been to singapore public library, legoland, melaka, singapore science center, Desaru, Kuala Lumpur, etc.

Those days without going far places, she would be in her grandmum's house to play with the cousins. Her appetite has been much improved in these few months. I'm so glad about this. Previously, she can hardly open her mouth for solid food. She can have milks for her breakfast, morning tea time, lunch, afternoon tea, dinner and supper. All six meals in a day. Now, she might only have twice for milk.

But i am so tired bringing them here and there. I am now in 8th month pregnancy. the very big tummy make me so tired.

My sis and her kids are going back to USA in another one-month time. So sad about this. We are having great fun here. Wan xin too.

Summary of investment in 2013

Never really been active in investment because of my active "spending". Never have extra money. I should really look seriously into this, as investment is a very important component for our future. 

Next year, hope to double up the money imbursed in the purchase of stock and double up the dividend received!.

RM4382.30 spent in the stock market in 2012.
RM9211.75 in 2013.
But sold out some stock and get back RM3104.04 in 2013.

Total dividend in 2012 was RM151.04.
Total dividend in 2013 was RM464.37.
Double up by 207%.
Next year is to double again.

Wish me luck!

Pregnancy

I don't really care for my little baby this time. No "pantang" on eating. Eat whatever i wish to eat. Of course, i still avoid "cold" food like crabs. But i drink cold drinks. I just think that i can stay slim after giving birth. So i have no limit on oral intake. Eat whatever and whenever i would like to. This is the outcome. I start to easiy get bloated for this very last 2 month of my pregnancy. Oh no, the gastric pain is unbearable. Even can't fall sleep at night. T.T

Pregnancy is always accompanied with leg cramp, backache, lethargy and constipation. Always. Just have to bear with it.

Hope that she (he) would be a very healthy baby. God bless!

投资路

话说，我在2012年5月30号做了生平第一次的股票交易，买进900股tasco.

怎么开始的？
上网读资料，读冷眼大师的两本大作，胡立阳的书也有三本。
网上部落格真的帮了很多。大家都是散户。大家都写下了心得。就从这些心得中学习。

到今天2013年10月20号，大概有一万令吉的股票。
别问我有没有赚钱。
我想，怎么我买的都是那么冷门的股，好像股价都一样的。
股息目前是赚了300++，大约3.8++%.
不多。
股价方面，还真的没赚。>.<

大家选股的条件都不一样。而我总选到冷门股。

嗯，对于个股的资料，我其实也是半桶水。多数都是看报表，看财务资料，看数字，觉得这间公司营运的还可以，就投资了。
可是，什么消息，什么新闻，什么这个那个的，还真的是不明白。
这应该是需要时间的。

现在的阶段是想卖掉tasco.
tasco到目前为止真让我失望。
虽然拿了他170令吉的股息，可是股价跌，公司盈利跌，交易量也不多。
我还能奢望什么？
我的钱好像被套着了。
等着好价钱些时要卖掉了。

为什么要投资？
因为钱会越来越小啊。
赚多少好像也只是一个数目。也买不到什么东西。
也不会做别的投资。
股票，可以用很少的数目来开始。还不错。

风险，一定有的。
那就要看你怎么选股了。
总好过放在银行，然后被我花掉。
我真是太厉害花钱了。

之前还想买屋子的。说什么公务员可以用低利息贷款。
是啊。
可是好大一笔数目。
好像不舍得呀。

现在跟家公家婆住在一间大房子。
互相照应，也不错的。
把钱省上来，做些小投资。

希望，过后还是会开始赚些钱。
就当作把钱存在股市。

不过，风险还真是。。比较大的。

纷扰

人世间的纷纷扰扰，只有看破红尘的那些出家人才能放下。

我们，凡人，是怎样都被缠绕在其中。
无法自拔，无法参透。。

悲觀

這幾個月都處於很悲觀的情況。

坐飛機怕飛機失事。
坐車怕發生意外。
連生病都覺得會一病不起。

呸呸呸⋯

可是這樣的想法依然縈繞腦中。

女兒發燒。
我很怕。
為甚麼喝了退燒藥還是那麼高？

我怕⋯

爱是互相伤害。