just read a blog post by one friend.
he is a houseman-doctor, who is doing housemanship at malacca hospital.
to be a doctor, you first must be a houseman-doctor first. then only you'll be medical officer.

i know it long time ago, that to be a doctor is not an easy job. working like hell.
luckily that i did not take medic for my degree.
but the social status is their repay loh.

what i want to say is.. being a houseman, you have to do all stuff.
on-call. being scold. being stupid.
because we are lack of experience, and practical knowledge.

although i'm not a houseman doctor, what i doing now is a bit similar.
being a 'cai niao', being somebody who got no experience, what you can do is try to learn as much as possible, try to do as much as possible, try to be fast as possible.
but.. we are so new. i don't wan to make this an excuse.
but everybody had been "new" before. please don't be too harsh to us, the new ones.
i don't think you are fast enough when you're new.

sometimes, ppl just get arrogant when they're the seniors.
being friendly gains u more respect.

who cares to be friend with those are arrogant and chuan?!

don't want!

i'm weak.
a flower being showered with love and warm since young.
sometimes just feel that i can't face those "challenge".
i think i can do it with the superior who is nice and friendly.
but not with those who are arrogant and sarcastic.

luckily i'm now at somewhere with all nice ppl.
god bless me for the future months..

plus, reading one of his blog post, seeing him putting up a photo of his hand holding her hand.
so touch..
miss him so much.
miss my families.